Preoccupied

Hello, how are you, may God bless each of you as the days continue to show us how the world can be cruel, As God is good to us that believe.

It has been a little while since I last wrote, I am terribly sorry for being preoccupied with life. I last wrote to you all that I was about to be married. She is the most giving caring wife a man could have, her love for me is hard to understand for she loves all of me even the not-so-great parts. As of today we have been married for a month, and believe or not it’s just like the first day of our marriage.

To find a love so pure this late in life goes beyond my understanding, I can only give God the glory for her being in my life.

Therefore, I have been preoccupied, so it is my hope that you receive great blessing of being with the one you love. The year 2020 has brought so many tears to so many, death for some seems to be all around them. Heartache seems to be their permanent state of being, it does not have to continue this way, however with all the loss some have found it hard to see past the grief. When my first wife died, I lost myself and at some points I had given up completely, you spend twenty-four years working through each trial. Just to gain joy and peace, to have it ripped away by death of your partner. Only to find out as you learn, if you had listened to God, you would have had happiness throughout all difficulties.

I have described Grief as a great dragon with levels of pain that begin with denial then ending with acceptance. Fighting the dragon of grief without God would be nearly impossible, getting back to the surface of the pond of life, to begin again is exceedingly difficult but highly worth the effort. You see how taking your eyes off Jesus, looking at the waves and storms of life can lead to drowning in sorrows. (Matthew 14:29-31) In my own experience, if I had not believed in Jesus, I would have found a way to end my life, Grief had overwhelmed me, anger, distrust, doubt, fear, emotional blindness, all of these came on all at once. I was utterly lost in grief, only the love of Jesus, shown through my Friends and family as well as grief share, Brought me out of this period in my life.

This faith in God, His son Jesus, the Holy Spirit, this was the only way I could claw my way out of the shadow of the dragon of grief. When I thought God had left me, he was the one standing behind me with his arms wrapped under my arms holding me up, on my feet carrying me until my legs could hold the weight of my trial. Then he fought by my side as he continues to do everyday showing me the way to heaven.

  Grief causes so much pain that you may not believe God is there with you, but I tell you he is there if you embrace Him, God will lift you up out of sea that you are drowning in, He will hold you up until you can and are willing to fight the dragon of grief. This is Our God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, He is the one who is willing to go to battle with you anytime you need him. God sent His Holy Spirit to hold you up when trials attempt to destroy you. You just have to be willing to believe in Jesus as the Son of God, confess before anyone that Jesus is your savior then the Holy Spirit of God will enter your heart, give you the strength necessary to defeat the great Dragon that wanders the earth seeking whom he may destroy.

May God be with you today as we travel through the valley of the shadow of death, for Jesus is the great shepherd of all the sheep of God. If you hear these words, accept these words, then you are, selected to be a child of God. Jesus is the son of God; He came to fulfill the Law of God. Then Jesus laid down his life for all of us, God’s Children called of God. This is why God sent his Son to save us from our own sins. Thank you all for listening today.