Thinking about circumstances

Today was going wonderful except for the fact that I woke up at three am to find myself, heart racing, unable to go back to sleep. Then I see Jerry and find myself helping him, as his wife is in the hospital with hospice. That sounded a little harsh it was not meant that way, I am the one who is supposed to be grieving, but as I found out today I am not the only one I know personally that is suffering loss. his loss is very similar only they have been married longer. I find myself in the awkward situation of being the person who has experienced similar circumstances, making me the perfect solution for help with his needs. Hard to not Help when God is already preparing you to be there for others, Yea me! you see God has a way to help you by helping others through their grief so you can get out of yours. Refusing to help someone else would be the great sin because you have no mercy for them, Therefore God will not have Mercy on you. I have no ill feelings towards Jerry but I find myself not wanting to deal with any of this. It’s not his fault that I have to remember Martha in the hospital, it is not his fault that those memories hurt, It is not his fault that he and his wife are going through similar circumstances as Martha and I. This is how God can use our situations to help others in need and prepare us for the future Jobs that will come up.

When Joseph the dreamer saw his brothers bowing down to him in a dream he had no idea what he would have to endure for that to happen. But we see that God already had a plan for this to occur, then the Israelites had no idea they would have to endure slavery to make them strong enough to defeat any enemy. P.S. (Slavery is terrible and wrong in this day of enlightenment all men and woman should be free). But it is the circumstances that change us we can either grow from it or be destroyed by it, It is our choice and ours alone to meet out no one can do it for us. They can help us though, we should let them, don’t let pride stand in your way.