Time with God

I took a nap and I wish that the dream I had did not disturb me so much. This has become normal for me lately. I bought a sleep number bed when I could, it is wonderful it keeps track of my sleep patterns and tells me when I did not sleep well. The only problem is apparently I do not sleep well very often.

 This is because my mind will not allow problems in my life to go away. My brain must figure out the issues from the days, weeks, or months, until it comes up with the solutions to every problem it faces. I do not know about you, but I personally would like to have a good dream occasionally.

There is an inherent problem, when you are lonely, the person you talk to is yourself or God, I personally talk to God a lot. The bible says be still and listen for the still small voice, God often talks in a whisper. Do you not wish he would get in your face and yell at you? Like hey you get back in line, do the job I gave you, but we would probably stand up and say what job? I have not heard what that job is, God I did not hear you when you told me what you want me to do! Either I am deaf in my spirit and you need to speak up, or you did not tell me what that Job is!

 I am now reminded what happened to Balaam in the past, God told him multiple times and then he gives the answer through a Donkey speaking to Balaam. Saying why did you strike me I was protecting you from yourself. Then Balaam finally listens, then he goes and blesses Israel because that is what God told him to do in the first place.

I know what I am saying this sounds terrible for a true believer in Jesus, but hey I am only Human, a stiff-necked Human at that! What that means is I am a little deaf and wish God would Just yell at me like he did Balaam. Then maybe I would do what he wants me to do, just like Jesus did for Saul before he became Paul now that is a wake-up call!

Ok now that is enough of my complaining about what I do not know. Hear is what I do know, I know God loves me, I know Jesus died for me, so I may approach God with confidence knowing he will listen. That means I need to listen to him I need to be quiet, listen when he calls, and when he calls, say yes lord what ever you need. This is what Samuel was told to do when three times God called, and he ran to Eli. This is what I need to do so tonight when God calls and wakes me up, I need to say yes lord I will do whatever you need me to do. Because that is what I am asking God to do for me, to call me and tell me what I need to do. I believe he will do this because I believe in him, and he loves me.